What do I want out of life?

 Someone on Reddit Call Bull Shit Disposable 420 asked me the following question. " I see that you have posted a lot of videos on You tube in order to pass the time and get recognition. 

However I ask this....

What would you do if.... your videos gained recognition, got a huge following and because of it you started to generate a massive amount of Ad revenue? 

What would you do with your life if you had unlimited financial resources? What are you passionate about?"  

So I will respond to this question the best I can.

I invest at least two to three hours a day just playing the game.

Then I spend another hour taking the video footage and pairing it with the commentary audio I record on my phone.

You see I upload the unedited original game play to You tube so people can see the actual experience and not an edited fake piece of shit. Later I upload a version of the game play footage with an additional audio track where I talk about random unscripted events that occurred in life.

If all my hard work started to be recognized by the general public and I got a fan base that watched my videos enough for me to earn an income large enough to give me complete financial freedom.

I would be over joyed by the opportunity that the universe and perhaps Jesus provided me.   

An if I was faced with the option to be able to do what ever I wanted as long as it didn't violate any American laws.

I am quite sure that I would take a course in order to learn Chinese and Japanese. I would expand my language skills.

I would do this in order to find an Asian bride.

 I know that someone some where would ask 

" Why not just marry an American woman? " 

American women are too spoiled and expect their husband to pay all of the expenses while they sit on their ass.

 I know some green haired lady feminist is going to say " That is sexist. Women can work if they want to." 

But most women DON'T WANT TO WORK. 

They simply want their husband to pay for everything while they complain that their husband is never home. 

Well excuse me you stupid bitch I have to work 30 hours a week minimum because your spending $500 to $1000 dollars a week on shit you don't need. 

You have 50 pairs of shoes when you only have two feet you stupid bitch. I don't give a fuck if it's Prada you don't need a purse that cost a down payment on a used car. 

I don't care that the woman from iron man recommended it. 

Your not going to pay $300.00 for a green healing crystal.

I want to meet a woman who is attractive who won't immediately believe she is entitled to my income just because were in a relationship. If anything I would enjoy being with someone who earns more money than me. That way so I can say " If you want to by a bag that cost one thousand dollars buy it yourself." Then she will say " Fine I will! " Only to realize that she had to work X amount of hours to earn that money and reconsider her purchase.

But if I found an attractive employed Asian woman who was willing to be in a committed relation ship with me. She would have to be quite understanding. Because as I have explained I am a very odd person.

Every single time I was in a relationship in the past I found I had an incontrollable desire to be physical close to them. I will now disclose information on a past relationship that I had in high school which I kept in complete secrecy from all of my blood related relatives. My Parents were introduced to her once under the title of just a friend and I insisted under penalty of a punch to the face that she didn't disclose anything to my parents. Even now I distrust them. They sabotaged me at every turn of my life. Get a new job. My father Doug Lesner shows up to my job completely wasted on beer. He was always so utterly drunk that he could barely talk. Insisting that I use my employee discount on the beer he was purchasing. When everyone knows the discount only applies to employees. Anyway....

When I was in high school I was a moody pissed off teenager who just wanted to hurt people. But even with my moody attitude I could get C+ or a B+ on all my assignments with next to no effort. Because I actually remember everything I read. I could read the book one time and recall everything I read. But my Mood pretty much asshole nature made me some what unpopular given I was very unpleasant. However during my second year of high school I encounter someone amazing. I met some just as moody and hate full and angry at the world as I was. Her name was Amy. Don't ask her last name. I will take that to my grave. I don't need people approaching her and asking " Did you know Wolf in high school? " Any way Amy and I at once were united in our hate of everything in the world. 

school was stupid because it forced you to learn concepts that would never be used in a corporation dominated job market that forces humans to complete the same task repeatedly. A job system that will be completely taken out of human hands the moment Artificial Intelligence arrived. Yes as teenagers we both envisioned a world where Hal 9000 was a Telemarketing tool and was running fully automated factories like in the movie short circuit. Yes we had a very odd view of the future THAT IS SLOWLY BECOMING TRUE.

Anyway united in our hate of the world we formed a very close relationship. It was the very first time I made an emotional bond with another person. It was the very first time I cared about the well being of someone beyond myself. I never had this connection with family or friends. So I kind of freaked out. If I saw some asshole giving Amy a hard time for wearing all black. I would beat the ever living shit out of them. If another asshole made comments about her massive breast. She had body image issues due to her huge breast. I would freak out and beat them nearly to death with my shoe. I would look for an object to attack them with and if none were around I would remove my shoe. Only to hit them with the toe end of shoes soul while I grabbed onto the heal of the shoe. After four beatings people learned to shut the fuck up. But later I learned that this behavior was overbearing, overprotective and possessive. However I also had a very strange habit that appeared from no where. It had no logical reasoning to it. I would be in school doing a work sheet trying to ignore everyone and suddenly I would get this overpowering distracting desire. I can only describe it as a sudden insecurity that made me require a physical confirmation that Amy still loved me. I have no idea why it would it happen or when it would happen. But when it did I would get up and go find Amy where ever she was. Only to pull her into my arms and accept her physical presence. I would just hold her in my arms and she would hold me as well. Eventually I would get over my insecurity and return to class. But do to complaining teachers I shortened this process from a five minute hug to just a five to ten second make out session. These hourly kissing sessions keep me at ease and oddly it elevated my mood. People who formally disliked me because I was an asshole who hated everything noticed a sudden change in my mood. Being more agreeable with every day life. I soon started making friends. However everyone who I became close to knew I was basically a ticking time bomb. Later at a reunion a form friend said " During high school you were basically a drug addict. As long as you got a  steady supply of French kissing you were fine. But we all knew that if you didn't get your fix you would be impossible to live with."

Any way Amy and I were together for a year despite the fact that my parents sucked ass at maintaining a residence. Due to the fact that our relationship had upgraded to a majorly sexual one I was overjoyed and seemed to think life was wonderful. Amy getting a steady dosage of dick started to cheer up and took pride in her appearance. So in order to support her I also revamped my appearance. Oddly no one in my family noticed when my wardrobe changed from all black to Blue, Green and Red.  However someone who noticed the extreme change in our clothes started snooping around. It didn't take long for Tim Campbell to discover that Amy and I were spending a ton of time unsupervised. So when Tim realized we were spend hours alone with each other after school. He had no choice but to follow us. When he discovered Amy and I were going over to Casey Everspeakers house so we could have sex in his basement apartment Tim was pissed.

You see Casey lived in his parents basement. But he was kind of overweight so they remodeled the basement into his own apartment. It had a bathroom, mini kitchen and living room/ bedroom. However Casey had his own exit and entrance separate from his parents house. So he could have guest of his own without his parent consent. So right after school while Casey was in football practice we would go over to his place and be fucking on his sofa. Casey knew what we were doing and allowed us to do what we liked.

He always had a freshly cleaned sheet over the sofa and a brown bag full of condoms next to the sofa. He also had the foresight to include a zip lock bag for used products. Anyway we went to casey's apartment to hook up and Tim followed us the entire way. He lived like four blocks from the school. Tim quickly discovered what were doing and in a jealous fueled rage he told everyone he knew. Most of them already knew. They could tell immediate by how happy I suddenly became. When I walked into the school and said " Hello Jordan." with a smile on my face. Instead of growling at him like an angry dog. He was like yeah he is without a doubt getting laid. These insightful people actually came to a combined agreement that anyone who fucks this up for him will get five kicks in the balls for being a cock blocking son of a bitch. However while Tim was acting like a teenage girl and gossiping about all the pussy I was getting and the extreme change I had under gone. He made a phone call from his kitchen in front of his sister and mother. Both of which heard EVERY FUCKING DETAIL of what I was doing. Now Tim's mother was close friends with my mother and had gotten to know me Via this friend ship. So Tim's mother knew I was a hate full violent asshole who wouldn't hesitate to murder anyone who jeopardized my steady offering of mind blowing sex. However Tim's little brother did not share this insight and proceed to gossip about me to his friends. One of which was AMY'S LITTLE BROTHER. Who at once ran home and told his mother that his sister was getting fucked every day after school. A WEEK LATER THEY MOVED. They relocated from Montcalm county to Kent county. An it only took them a week to relocate. An oddly enough to avoid being murdered and to delay a murderous backlash towards Tim she didn't even inform me she was moving. A week went by and people see I am asking around about Amy and they with held the information. They wanted to delay my outburst. However Tim's little brother Benny approached me one day and said " I am sorry I caused your girlfriends family to move to Kent county. "

 It was like the Hulk punched me in the balls. I lost the ability to do basic motor functions and I collapse to the ground. I was crying super hard. I was a complete asshole for an entire semester. " Dude are you Okay? " " FUCK OFF YOU LAME ASS SON OF A BITCH. CAN'T YOU SEE I AM TRYING TO FORCE MYSELF TO STOP BREATHING SO I CAN SUFFICATE MYSELF TO DEATH! " However someone brilliant realized that all they had to do was find some large breasted gothic woman to replace the one I lost. So they put in the effort to search the entire school to find that person. An incredibly they actually did. Jennifer was a nerdy closed off book worm type who had no regard for fashion trends. But when a group of motivated like mind students approached her with brand new gothic outfits and were insisting she be my girlfriend. She resisted at first. But once we were introduced and we started talking. Jennifer realized I had read a lot of the same novels she did. After about two weeks we formed a bond. Then people silently rejoiced when we started dating.  They saw my mood improve and I returned to the nice guy I was before. However a small number of people found my sudden rebound unnerving. But when my relationship with Jennifer followed the exact same timeline as I did with Amy. Those same people started to freak out slightly. They saw where this was leading and if it went the same way. I would be receiving  emotional damaged while still in recovery from previous emotional trauma.

An my normal emotional state was being asshole. Pile on two break ups. That would equal a super Saiyan level asshole. No one capable of logical thought wanted that. So this group of like minded people approached a football player. They told the guy the situation and the past events caused by Tim and suggested Tim need some type of motivation to keep his mouth shut. Basically this footballer player went to Tim and threatened to shove a hockey puck up his asshole if he didn't keep his mouth shut. Jennifer and I were together for a year. just before my senior year I started going to Casey's apartment again. Casey had finished high school and was attending a local college. He was living in a dorm but gave his father strict instructions that basically said " Don't bother my friend." So Jennifer and I had open access to his apartment. We of course started fucking every single day after school. Jennifer also soon had an improved mood and she also took pride in her appearance. The events were scary similar. However no one dared interfere and were coasted through the remaining year completely uneventful. Until Jennifer moved away for college.

Having completed high school and having the like minded people focused on college entrance exams. I was on my own. However every single relationship I had after high school followed this same timeline.

So if I married someone they would have to comfortable with my nonlogical overwhelming desires for physical contact. They have to be able to adapt to and effortlessly deal with a full grown man suddenly without warning exclaiming " Titties! " and plunging his face into her cleavage. They have to be able to remain calm when I suddenly cup both of her breast while we are watching a movie on the sofa.  She has to be able to understand I am immature when I suddenly want to use her lap as a pillow. She needs to understand I enjoy the body heat produced by her vagina which is why on cold days I will put my hands in her pants pockets. She has to have the Ability to endure my desire to suddenly want to French kiss her for no reason. A normal American wife doesn't have the mental fortitude or intelligence required to deal with my sudden emotional outburst.

If I was at a family dinner with a woman I felt an emotional connect to and she was introducing me to her parents. Only to have her mother challenge my love for her daughter. An I suddenly decided to provide undeniable evidence that I loved her by French kissing and groping her breast directly in front of both her parents. I am quite sure a normal American woman would freak out and start yelling at me. While someone born outside of the United States might assume that it is a common custom for proving your affection to someone you love. Which would be a reasonable response to such a challenge.

So I would like to meet an oriental woman to be my wife.

I would then purchase a two bedroom house and a hybrid car.

If I didn't have to work because of my youtube income I might spend my days

napping in a lap pillow while occasionally posting update videos for my fans.

This is my new car video, This is my new house video, This is my new wife video.

Even if I had the means I wouldn't buy helicopters or sports cars or big ass boats.

Unless it was for a video I wouldn't hang out with Hollywood stars or YouTube influencers.

If I had the access and fans wanted me to have lunch with Jason Statham.

I would just to honor the request. I honestly don't find modern stars attractive for some reason. Even Angelina Jolie makes me go " Meh."    

So yeah I just want an attractive Asian who I can get physical with.